Since you load, it should be easy to solve this "problem". Dial it down for maybe 500 rounds until you build up the physical and mental "callous" that comes with shooting something that gives you satisfaction.
Then rely on a defense load (lots of folks recommend commercially loaded defense ammo for liability reasons I guess) that gives you the end result you seek that shoots to the same point as the range ammo you have loaded.
Trust me. If God forbid you have to defend yourself, the rough shooting defense loads will go unnoticed.
Then rely on a defense load (lots of folks recommend commercially loaded defense ammo for liability reasons I guess) that gives you the end result you seek that shoots to the same point as the range ammo you have loaded.
Trust me. If God forbid you have to defend yourself, the rough shooting defense loads will go unnoticed.