Brian, there is no way to tactfully say this so i'll just say it: what you just stated is one of the most pathetic things I've ever heard. To think you would honestly compare a job...a simple means of generating income...at the same level as your very existence. I can't help but pity you right now.
It wasn't just a job. it was a career that I loved with a passion. My company closed, and over the next 25 years my wife and I raised a disabled daughter on a fraction of that income, and I did what I could until I became utterly unable to continue working outside my home. I work part time now telecommuting. Sometimes people just get broken when pressures are piled on too deep. I've done the best I could.
Don't pity me, do something to keep the next poor fool from getting broken. You may save his life, and gee, you may save the lives of maybe a dozen coworkers.
All the threads here that talk about how to kill the guy who's been driven to the limits and goes after his "enemies" with a weapon to avenge how his life has turned out, and never, ever, have I heard serious discussion about how to help keep people from reaching that point.
When was the last time you saw a coworker struggling with a problem, and put serious effort into helping him solve it? Or are you one of the people who files complaints against the crazy guy in the next cubicle, and thus becomes a potential target?
If you've listened, I've said over and over, tactical observation also needs to lean towards prevention. Keep the desperate men from reaching bottom, and there will be fewer murders of desperation among family and in the workplace.
You know that this is true. Ignore it or embrace it. It appears that you do worse than ignore it, you slap it in the face.