Are you a nut?
Sir, your infatuation with firearms and persistent fantasizing of shooting scenarios would tend to indicate a preoccupation with violence.
This preoccupation is fueled by your identification with movie protagonists and an expressed desire to assault and shoot liberals. The vicarious playing out of violent scenarios is something that you have learned to hide from everyone except your wife, indicating that you are aware of deleterious effect that your behavior would probably have on your relationships if it were exposed. Now that your mother has moved in, it is possible that a third person is aware of this.
The euphoric feeling that you derive from the handling and manipulation of firearms is a manisfestation of deeply held antisocial beliefs and probably early childhood learning wherby you understood that you could exert some control over certain people by referring to firearms or brandishing weapons.
It is likely that the frequency of these antisocial episodes is increasing and you question your emotional stability by asking this forum whether you are a "nut". I suspect that you recognize a decreasing ability to control your violent impulses and you want help in this regard.
You are dealing with feelings of insecurity by hiding loaded weapons and using three dogs for protection. Has your feeling of insecurity increased since you received a new house guest? Are there other issues that tend to make you feel powerless to control your environment or the running of your home?
How does your mother react when she sees you on the couch with the gun in your hand? Do you suspect that she is uncomfortable? Does she say anything? Do you want her to say something or do you prefer that she not mention these episodes?
Are you a nut? Consult a local mental health professional and let him or her decide.
Sir, your infatuation with firearms and persistent fantasizing of shooting scenarios would tend to indicate a preoccupation with violence.
This preoccupation is fueled by your identification with movie protagonists and an expressed desire to assault and shoot liberals. The vicarious playing out of violent scenarios is something that you have learned to hide from everyone except your wife, indicating that you are aware of deleterious effect that your behavior would probably have on your relationships if it were exposed. Now that your mother has moved in, it is possible that a third person is aware of this.
The euphoric feeling that you derive from the handling and manipulation of firearms is a manisfestation of deeply held antisocial beliefs and probably early childhood learning wherby you understood that you could exert some control over certain people by referring to firearms or brandishing weapons.
It is likely that the frequency of these antisocial episodes is increasing and you question your emotional stability by asking this forum whether you are a "nut". I suspect that you recognize a decreasing ability to control your violent impulses and you want help in this regard.
You are dealing with feelings of insecurity by hiding loaded weapons and using three dogs for protection. Has your feeling of insecurity increased since you received a new house guest? Are there other issues that tend to make you feel powerless to control your environment or the running of your home?
How does your mother react when she sees you on the couch with the gun in your hand? Do you suspect that she is uncomfortable? Does she say anything? Do you want her to say something or do you prefer that she not mention these episodes?
Are you a nut? Consult a local mental health professional and let him or her decide.
