Several issues here.
Actually how you "feel" when you see a police officer with a rifle is irrelevant. Are you a law enforcement officer who has to respond to violent crimes on a daily basis? Comparing them to you is apples and oranges. No it's not, they are citizens just like me. I probably have more time in combat than most of them, but that would be irrelevant right? But you're always free to apply for that job, aren't you? I sure could, but why would I want to live here?
And as to the state that you live in...if it's so bad, why are you living there? Just like your decision not to apply for a police officer job, you live in California because you want to. I live in California because I got stationed here buddy. I'll be leaving as soon as I am no longer under orders to be here. You have complete freedom to move away. You just choose not to.
Now to the third point. I keep hearing about this conspiracy to take away all of our freedoms. Only thing is, I can never find out from those who talk about it just exactly who is involved in it and why they are supposedly doing this. It seems to be a very well-guarded secret. It's not a specific person. It's common sense. Disarm the populace for total control.
But again, assuming that such a conspiracy exists (and I don't believe it for a minute), if I recall from other threads, you're one of the people who refuses to even vote. (Voting for a third party = not voting when it's a obviously two-party race.) Actually, blindly voting for one of the two parties because they are 'the only ones who can win' is already an admission of defeat, and could be a first step to relinquishing one's liberty. So what right do you have to complain? Hmm, lets see, 6 years faithful service, Iraq and Afghanistan vet, FNRA volunteer, good honest citizen, I just can't see how I have any rights.... Just like your decision to remain unarmed and live in a state that you hate, your choices (or refusal to act) have more to do with your situation than anything else you can point to. All you have to do is man up and run your life. Man up? I need to man up? You really are humorous aren't ya...