Now that Federal has discontinued the Nyclad 125gr. Std load .38 Special, many seem to recommend going back to 148 gr wadcutters or 158gr. semi-wadcutters for defense ammo in lightweight snubs. For the most part these loads are pretty low velocity and are also getting harder to find. What brands/models of these loads are available with acceptable performance as a defensive load? I really don't like shooting the +P loads in my Airweight. Just too much recoil!