Well, for christmas my dad has decided to get me a shotgun. I have been wanting one and nearly know everything about autos, pumps, and single shots because I have been reading about them nearly every night from ten websites for over a year now. I really like pumps. I have read a lot about all the pumps and have finally came to the conclution to get the nova. My dad saw it for the first time and loved it. But I have one question, I am 16 years old and weigh 220 pounds(most of fat). Am I big enough to handle the recoil of a twelve gauge? I am a little scared over the thought of the first shot since I have only shot bb guns before. Another question, what load do you guys sugest starting out on? I know nothing about loads. My dad used to hunt over 20 years ago but stopped due to no place to hunt, so he was thinking of the gun range. Is there a REALLY light 12 gauge load? Thanks for the help!